Have your freakout

Question

Last night after grading another one of my countless mock exams I found myself pretty low with respect to next week's test: not remembering how to calculate TPPC, using this periods dividend as opposed to the next in any of the equity equations and mixing up the classical/neoclassical/exogenous econ forms. Walking home I spoke with my girlfriend who is in another timezone at the moment, as she wanted to leave me to my own devices in the week leading up to the test and she asked me plainly "have you had your freakout yet?" This goes back to the week leading up to Level 1 in December when I was trudging through Denver in sub-zero weather, when I looked down at my frozen hands holding the hundreds out of note cards and let out a belly-aching yell that only I could hear above the wind-swept existence; that was when I knew everything would be OK. I retorted that I hadn't and thats when I knew I needed to let some steam out with less than a week to go. After getting my morning session in today I walked out of my office with my sneakers on, some water and great deal of confidence to climb the mountain that I work under, with every step towards the top I felt my confidence slowly coming back and finally at the pinnacle I looked out at the vast horizon and yelled with all of my gusto in the valleys below! After yelling until my lungs could no longer disperse any air I gulped what water was left and began running down the trail back to my cfa materials below with the notion that everything was going to be ok either way. Up to this point we've studied as much as we can, with 6 days to go all we can do is perfect the ideas we know and gain confidence going into the test day, as its all about how we feel when we sit down that morning. So with that, I suggest that anyone feeling the same way I did go and have your freakout! Good luck to all and thank you for everyone's support and help.

FitMBA · Answer

Just read this today and it made me feel a bit better so thanks for sharing! I had my freak out yesterday, same thing feeling like I've forgotten a lot of what I felt I knew solid before - just shattered my confidence completely and yesterday spent an hour having a good cry and managed to give myself a massive headache as well fml! Got a good sleep last night and am feeling a lot better today thank god. Going to push through this and try to stay calm, freaking out only impairs my thinking and makes me make careless mistakes. I know I need to get my confidence up though it's weird because I felt really good last week. I feel absolutely horrible for my boyfriend, I've been a complete basket case for the last few months and he's been a saint for putting up with me all I hope is that I pass this so that in the end it will be worth it. The stress of this plus work I swear it's taken years off my life. Good luck to everyone! Sending positive, calm vibes!

Chevalier · Answer

I had mine on the last exam of the Schweser Mocks... than I entered the scores and found, that this one has the worst average of all Schweser Mock's.