I’ve become such a fat ass and a jerk to everyone

Anyone else have these problem? All I do is work all day and sit on my A$$. Go home, study and sit on my A$$. I spend all my spare time studying so I don’t exercise or go out and do anything fun anymore. Plus all I do is talk about CFA to my colleagues and friends because I have lost interest in everything else. Birthday party? Who cares. Housewarming? Forget it. Baby shower? F*ck off. Not only am I becoming socially awkward from lack of social life and only talking about the CFA, but fat because of lack of exercise. It’s just that when I stop doing or thinking about anything CFA related, I feel like I am going to forget EVERYTHING and completely bomb the exam!

I refuse to fail. I can’t fail. I am one of the top analysts at my company so I have a reputation to uphold. My peers at work wish me good luck to my face but I know they are all envious of me and secretly want me to fail. They all invited me to lunch today but I said I had “lots of work to do” (i.e. eat lunch at my desk, troll the 300Hours Forum and memorize my Schweser QuickSheet). Everyone keeps telling me, “Oh, I’m sure you’ll pass” and it annoys the sh*t out of me. Shut up….you have no idea what you are talking about or what I’ve been going through. A$$holes.

And don’t even get me started on all the jerks on my Facebook Newsfeed who are Checking In at cool places every weekend. I’m no longer tagged in anyone’s status updates or party pics because I wasn’t there. They are not Facebook Friends. They are just Facebook People. I hate you all.

Now I don’t feel so bad about Level II only being offered in June. I can at least take the extra time to lose weight and get my social life back. Maybe start being nicer to people too (including my domestic companion…dare I mention I’m actually getting married?)

Oh and I need a haircut too.